I was walking back home, alone. Feeling alone. Though I believe I am not alone because I know He is there following me, I can still feel the loneliness around me. I don't know what's happening. Just as the same cold night and the same sound of the steps of my shoes. There is something in my head, wants to explode. The heaviness of my mind is a burden to me. I can't hold on the weight any longer. It's like I want to shout and scream at the top of my lungs saying "PLEASE LET GO OF ME!" But I'm so weak. I don't know how to let it go. I know what to let go, Yes. I know. I know. I knew... I knew it a long time ago but I'm not doing anything to stop it, instead I'm still conforming to its patterns and ways.I want to know how to stop this. I want to know how to stop him. Wait, I knew how to stop him. But again I am weak.... again I am thinking about these things again....
S T O P !
There, I stopped myself in thinking those kind of trash in my head. I know the Lord is there to help me, to comfort me, to strengthens me, to guide me, to heal me, to lift me, and to love me. There is God. Again, the enemy was defeated long time ago. I am not weak. I am not who I was. I am not who they think I am. I am courageous. I am strong. I am a conqueror. I am a princess and never be alone. I have God that will fight for me. We will fight for each other.
I LOVE YOU, LORD!
